Lived Experience Forum

[BlueBay]

I'm a bad person 

my behaviour 

I don't deserve to be here 

I hate myself so much 

[greenpea]

[Otter]

Hi @BlueBay ,

Fully appreciate that this is a venting thread but just dropping you a reply to let you know we care and you absolutely deserve to be here - are you able to reach out to SCBS or Lifeline if you are wanting to have a chat to someone this afternoon/evening?

Hoping you are well,

Otter

[BlueBay]

Hey @Otter 

Sick of being the one that causes problems because of my BPD behaviour. 
I'm not worthy really 

it's just hard tidsy 

im to blame 

stupid me

[BlueBay]

Oh the nights getting worse

the tension around is terrible 

wish I was gone 

not here anymore 

[Sphinxly]

Hey @BlueBay,

I hope it helps sharing your feelings here. I am worried since it seems like not much has shifted for you today. Please keep an eye out for an email from me ❤️ 

Here with you,

Sphinxly 🐣

[Former-Member]

Have you ever woken up and felt so numb, but heavy like you are carrying and elephant or two with you. That is how I have felt all day, it's a day where I could have left the earth but I just couldn't move to do anything to have that happen. I feel so disconnected from those I live with, I have looked at them amd feel nothing not love, not compassion, no feelings whatsoever. I have slept most of the day and was hoping to feel a little better, feel a little less disconnected from my family. If anything I feel worse and just want to be left alone. 

I am safe amd I have hubby buzzing around for the rest of the night

[greenpea]

@Clawde  been worried about you. Good to see you.xxx

[Snowie]

My psych is leaving. After 7 weeks of not having an appointment I finally have a session with her and she breaks the news to me. She says she will pass me onto another psych at the clinic. 

I feel like I have to start all over again. I am devastated. It feels like breaking point. 

Why do I bother, why not just give up now.

[tropicalsun]

Hi @Snowie,

I am sorry to hear about your psych leaving. It is a terrible feeling when your support leaves, especially with such short notice. I can imagine it would feel like you're starting over, hopefully your psych does a great job at handing over the information and you connect with them. 

We are here to support you through the transition, but it is still a horrible feeling.

Thinking of you,

tropicalsun