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[Nay69]

I am an alcoholic and I am severely depressed 😔

i cannot rely on family as they don’t know and don’t care anyway. My husband and daughter sense that there is something wrong but I admit it to them because I feel that I have failed them. Just telling you is s massive step for me and I don’t know what I am supposed to do next on this journey 

@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Sophia1@outlander@frog@Bill16 and anybody who is listening 👂 

Giving you all love and hugs 🤗 just need some advice or guidance xoxo 💐❤️

[Nay69]

@TAB

Thanks for tagging me back.

It’s always good to know that there is someone listening ❤️💐

[TAB]

Well join the club @Nay69 I don’t have family tho . Siblings and their offspring mostly given up on me. I lived alone for 10yrs with my beautiful cat, then ran off to earn my fortune which seemed to work sometimes well for hangers off anyways well I guess I was mostly happy then. Last few years its either going broke or too much work and its not as easy anymore dont know that I could have done what is now being asked Well forever ago. Sorry for going on. Not sure how that works in a family dynamic. I separated myself mostly. Well apart from stitch up xmas lunch when drugged up sibling and partner behaved very oddly towards me yet turned into an inquisition. On me. Yeah well other things bring shame and regret re family and my behaviour but think they did me over on that one anyhoo. Well done for saying it getting it out there but can be a double edged sword..

[TAB]

And sipping. And having a sickie. And looking into the Void @Nay69 oh well

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Nay69 @TAB .....

Good move being able to say it @Nay69 re alcohol.

Maybe start with your family doctor, because they can refer you to a specialist to begin with.  They will probably give you a check-up to see where you are at, and provide you with support people to help you with the addiction side of things.  It might seem scary, but the first step to getting better is admitting to yourself that the problem exists ..... calling it what it is, and you have done that now.  Well done Hon - it’s not easy.

Next step is that reaching out for help so you are not trying to deal with this alone.

We are here to walk along with you ❤️

If if you don’t feel able to talk to your gp, maybe chat with Sane online, or their call line.  There are links at the bottom of this page.  They can give you contact details for services in your state.

Hugs n hugs @Nay69 ..... Keep taking care of you ..... keep reaching out.  You matter, and you deserve support.

[TAB]

Ok. @Nay69 .. take 2.. get a plan and tee up detox then rehab if that’s what you need. Not sure fm yr post if you told family or guess it’s just obvious sorry. They most likely won’t understand anyway. Although I hope they do

[TAB]

Just an aside @Nay69 it’s not ‘the real you’ or at least you deserve better. Ok family member got sober and was still an ah as he was before drank oh well . At least it’s cheaper , feel better ok after a while and realise been shutting Life out. @Faith-and-Hope

[Faith-and-Hope]

I’ve gotta get to bed .....

G’night @TAB ..... and @Nay69 if you’re still up .....

💤💕

[TAB]

Night Faithenheimer @Faith-and-Hope whether west or east 😸

[Nay69]

@Faith-and-Hope

As always I can turn you without fear of judgment. I am going to my GP first thing Monday because I hate feeling like this.
My mr has no respect for me and tells daily how fat and ugly I am... however this is not my driving force to break the cycle of addiction, my daughter is my reason ❤️
She is aware of my problem but in a sad way seems to understand me anyway.... that is the scariest part 😔
Best thing I have done is to admit that I have a problem and now I can move forward to healing myself.
Love and hugs my beautiful friend xoxo
Thank you