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19-01-2017 07:58 PM
19-01-2017 07:58 PM
From Low to High
The week before was grey clouds for me and last week was pure black. I got drunk so many times, could not leave the house, had to be watched 24-7. I even sent all my close friends warm messages as I planed it to be my last.
Now I'm laughing. Full of beans. Kicking butt at work. I'm on a pure high and trying not to let it take full control of me incase it makes me drop fast.
But I'm left with a guilt over being sad last week. It's like why was I sad why was I dramatic I put people I loved through hell while I crashed and burned and now I'm purely fine. I feel like I'm kind of evil doing that twisted and sick.
I just don't get how I can go from one extrem to another and don't know how to deal with the change.
Has anyone else felt like this?
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19-01-2017 08:56 PM
19-01-2017 08:56 PM
Re: From Low to High
Hi @Former-Member
While you're waiting for others to respond, there's a great thread called 'Any Rapid-Cyclers? Put your hand up. down. up. down. up...'' I found the posts from @MoonGal & @Castdown particularly interesting.
I hope reading these posts help in the meantime.
For what it's worth - it's great that you have noticed the swing from low to high - from what others with similar experiences have said, noticing it is half (or more) the battle.
Take care
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20-01-2017 02:43 PM
20-01-2017 02:43 PM
Re: From Low to High
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23-01-2017 03:26 PM
23-01-2017 03:26 PM
Re: From Low to High
Hi @Former-Member,
Just wanted to check in with how you're going today?
Take care,
Shimmer
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24-01-2017 02:41 PM
24-01-2017 02:41 PM
Re: From Low to High
I'm cycling very fast. The highs are even getting me annoyed. I'm just on my last straw. So tiered of it. I saw my GP yesterday and going to start a new style of medication. I'm going to try in on Saturday as I want to finish my week at work with out being in space and I'm scared of reactions so I take it in the morning because morning is safe.
My work is going to be 4 full days a week so I'm going to use that time to try do what I love. I haven't done anything I love in over a year due to being depressed and not getting out of bed. But hello ballet and art galleries I'm coming to you.
If these meds don't work in a month I'll be seeing a phycatrist. If they do work I'm going to see a phycologist as I don't want to bring up the past yet but deal with my today fears like flying and panic attacks.
Thanks for checking up.