- Author : EternalFlame
- support : 9
- Topic : Our stories
I have returned after a long hiatus trying to sort out what the hell went wrong in my life. If you're unfamilar with my story, several months ago I was at my wits end living with my half-sister and her family. Well, I had a massive falling out with my half-sister when I finally had enough of her crap and stood up to her abuse and she threw me out as a result. Of course she said that "it was all me" and "I was the mean and nasty one". She refused to take responsibility for her own behaviour and actions. Her and her family are now no longer a part of my life, and they never will be again. They have demonstated that they are not worthy of my trust or respect.
I've seen a new GP, but she wants me to go see a Psychologist/Psychiatrist to get further testing and asessments done, as I explained to her that I may have Complex-PTSD as well as anxiety/depression. Then I had to take myslef off of my antidepresant medication. I told the GP that it was making me so sick, but she didn't listen and wanted a second opinion from a Psychiatrist. I had constant brain-fog, I had muscle twitches and tics, my sleep patterns were all over the place, and when I did sleep, I was out for 14 hours at a time. I was loosing my ability to speak and form full sentences and I was on the verge of prediabetes because I couldn't loose any of the 30kg that the antidepressants had put on.
On top of my antidepressant withdrawal, I've had to tolerate my job agency that I'm forced to see under the obligations of Newstart, who are on my case about all this medical stuff. But now I've run into a major barrier and I need some advice. I have tried looking for a Psychologist/Counsellor on my own who is trauma-informed and/or specialises in dealing with child abuse/domestic violence, but the ones I've found near me are way too expensive. Even though I am on a Mental Health Care Plan, I still have to pay the full cost of the sessions up-front - the Plan only allows me to get a Medicare rebate from selected medical professionals.
I'm looking at anywhere between $170 - $250 per a session in up-front costs, which on Centrelink Newstart is extremely hard to do. And many of them are not taking in new patients because it is coming closer to the end of the year. I can only think of going through one of the public hospitals or a community allied health services clinic, but I feel uncomfortable doing this, as they're ill-equiped and already clogged with so many patients as it is, so I may not even be able to get in this way either.
I am tired, angry, frustrated and drained. Why is it so hard to seek professional mental health support in this country? It can't wait until next year. I need to take care of this now, as my job agency is waiting on me for updated paperwork and assessments. Is there anyone who has been through something similar who can give me some advice and guide me in the right direction? I would really appreciate it, I'm lost in the medical labyrith and I can't find a way out.