17-05-2018 02:12 PM
Anyway it didn't happen because I started getting chest pain, hypotension and sever tachycardia.
I'm really sick and I'm really scared.
I'm not allowed to get out of bed unless I go to the toilet, and just the 3 metres to get there make me want to pass out, cry because my chest hurts too much, and collapse back in bed. But even lying down I'm dizzy and in pain.I hate how aweful I feel.
They're doing lots of tests but the only answers coming up is nothing all they know is I'm having heart problems and my ecg sucks. I'm due to see a cardiologist asap but I'm scared.
They think it might be my new medication, but as its a depot it'll be in my system for over a month and Ill probably be transferred to a medical ward I guess. But it's so shit, I want to go home.
17-05-2018 02:26 PM
Sorry you are not well physically It can play a big part on our mental health as well.
I just wanted to say I hope you get to see the cardiologist soon and they can work out what's wrong. And I hope you can get better real soon. But also you're in the right place getting care and support.
Rest up love. Take care. Hope to hear from agsin.
17-05-2018 06:22 PM
I'm sick of lying in this stupid bed. I was meant to be watching the avengers rn instead I'm wondering if my last suicide attempt could still k*ll me. I don't want to die. I'm so scared. I've got nurses, Dr's, and the cardiologist worrying and that might not even be what's wrong. It's so messed up. I don't know to think or feel. Like what if this doesn't get better.