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[Shaz51]

hellloooo @BlueBay my sister 

[BlueBay]

Hello my beautiful sis @Shaz51

im starting to be paranoid snd its  really getting to me. 

@Zoe7 I’m thinking too much in my head. It’s nit good. I have to stop being paranoid. 

[Zoe7]

What are you feeling paranoid about @BlueBay It may help to write it down - sometimes actually seeing the words on the page (or screen) can help to take that step back and help.

[BlueBay]

@Shaz51@Zoe7 

i feel like an idiot. My doctor didn’t call back this morning. This afternoon I was getting pretty depressed and didn’t take my meds (I know I know) so I called again snd the nurse spoke to me for a few minutes. She said she will get my doctor to csll. He eventually called tonight 5 min before closing time. 

Now this is where I am paranoid. He didn’t csll me earlier because he wants me to cope myself. He wants me to do this on my own. See now I’m sngry. I kniw he was free this afternoon as he had no appts. Why didn’t he call me when I needed him. 

I know this is bad I can see it now after the fact. I feel I need to let him know about my thoughts. 

Snd then another thoughts thinking oh what does he care. He doesn’t care. I’m a bother to him.  

Oh my thoughts ...... 

[BlueBay]

See @Zoe7@Shaz51 why csn I see this now but not at the time. I feel so sngry eith myself. 

[Zoe7]

Don't be angry with yourself BB - you should be proud of yourself for reaching that conclusion on your own - in the heat of the moment your emotions took over but you were able to take a step back and look at it from the outside and that is real progress @BlueBay Well done BB 

[BlueBay]

Thankyou @Zoe7 now I need to not stsy sngry. 

Are you going to watch SBS tonight. There is a documentary on mental health.  It looks interesting. 

[Zoe7]

I will either watch it or record it to watch tomorrow @BlueBay I think it looks interesting too - lets see how the health professionals go in determining who has a mental illness and who doesn't.

[Shaz51]

Is that on tonight @BlueBay, @Zoe7, I might taped it xx

[Zoe7]

It is on over 2 weeks @Shaz51 - tonight and next week.