Lived Experience Forum

[Chris]

As night time closes in, a weariness sets in. Mind heart and soul feel like cant cope with this anymore. I want some inner peace .Fighting the negative thoughts. Trying to use skills learned. Coaching myself through minute by minute ,Knowing tomorrow is more of the same.On the outside I look and sound fine. but on the inside its quiet different. I don't have any answers and I guess there probably isn't one.

[jqw]

Have comfort in knowing u are not alone i am just the same. I have the tv on and music as well just to drown out any negative trying to get in.

My quote to myself is "I am doing the best I can with the situation I have." If that means I had a shower today so be it! I day at a time some days an hr at a time.

[kato]

I often find myself watching a movie or two and usually half way through the second movie I take my nighttime meds
then after the movie/s have finished I have a playlist of music set up on my phone and I fall asleep with headphones in.
I use music that makes me happy and drowns out any other thoughts altho I have found myself getting emotional at parts in movies that I probably shouldn't start crying over. So it usually ends the movie and I listen to music.
thought process wise I reaffirm with myself that even tho my day might have been blah
I still did my best.
on really difficult nights I write my jibber ish into my journal with no filtering meaning I just write whatever comes to mind. Thus removing the thought from my brain sorta works for me when struggling.
hope that might help maybe

[Loopy]

kato, I crawl into my bed, turn the radio on and pull the doona up over my head, which in my mind, creates another being and in no time I will go to sleep, only to wake up about 3:AM and It all starts again. I may drift off later on but it only appears to be a short duration. that's when the conscious nightmare begins again.

loopy