im back..... i think

[Anony18]

Let me know when you do @outlander 

[outlander]

Iwish i had someone around like you. @Anony18
I hope im.not squeezing to hard

[Anony18]

I may not be around physically @outlander but I am still here for you. Just close your eyes and imagine.

No not squeezing too hard yet - still have my fingers in tact

[outlander]

I can feel you with me @Anony18 though i might have to move away abit so i dont puke on you as thats what i thinks going to happen. I feel really sick and my head feels like its going to explode

[Anony18]

Went for lunch @outlander - Sorry! Well I don't mind if you puke on me. I am wearing really old clothes so I can just chuck them away. How you feeling now? Have a lie down if you need to rest up. 

[outlander]

You seem like a mother or i have a strong stomach lol @Anony18
Thats ok you dont have to apologise to me at all. I can finally see the pics though and im glad ive been watching the stars with you
Ive still got a really bad headache. I think I might have to go back to my chiro. When i fell off my horse about 2 yrs ago i twisted one of my neck vertebrae so sometimes it pops out and causes the headaches as well and since my neck is stiff as well i think thay could be a cause too. Stress aggrivates it more though

[outlander]

I hope you had a good time out. Ive been at my second job and still here will be leaving soon

[Anony18]

I am an older sister but was like a mini mum to my younger brothers who were twins @outlander. Use to change their diapers when I was 9 years old so I guess have that motherly sense. Think that is the one thing that scares guys away at times because I am too motherly haha. 

Yikes! Lucky you are alive as it sounded like a bad fall. Definitely go see a chiropractor. I have such a stiff neck from my job - constantly on the computer. Definitely agree that stress aggravates the headaches more! 

[outlander]

yep thats the same as me @Anony18 seems we have quite abit in common u and i. i dont think your motherly at all i wish i had someone like you around that actually cared. im so use to my mother being a cow it woudl scare me if she was nice to me i think. i dont expect it anymore though it does make me feel really alone and having people around me that arent nice to me either i literally ahve noone

when i fell off my horse, he was a big horse and i landed on both knees but my head hit the ground and the rebounded up and hit the ground again so yes im quite lucky. im on my computer alot as well as i study online and my work is on the computer but i do try to limit it to a few hours a day and take breaks

[Anony18]

Yes it does seem like we have quite a bit in common @outlander. That is such a pity how your mother treats you. There are people out there in today's society that are nice because they want something or can see it as a "cash in" in future. It is really sad to be honest but there are those rare few that aren't that way. I do hope one day in person, you will find someone who will be there for you and care for you, love you for not only your positive traits but your imperfections too. It is better to have the ONE friend who you know be there for you than many friends who aren't really there for you...if that makes sense. 

For now, remember though it may seem lonely, you are definitely not. You have me, and the other lovely people on this forum. Yes it is tougher because of the lack of physicality but mentally and emotionally we are here for you. I find that a bit better and comforting at times. I'll let you in on a little secret (might be a tad creepy)....I sometimes close my eyes, pretend you are with me, imagine how you all sound as you "talk" and when you guys give me a hug, I imagine that, sometimes I even hug my pillow or my teddy that lies next to me. 

OUCH! That sounds so painful but am so glad you are OK and here to keep me company today. 

On a separate note - am pondering whether to see Shawn Mendes in concert here at end of year. His songs speak to me - they are quite sad given his latest album is mainly break up songs. And he has these bittersweet songs.