Hugs @NeurospicyPixie ,
I hear you. It sounds like a very difficult space you are sitting in right now.
Having children home all holidays can be a challenge for any parent, let alone having so little support.
If you feel you need to speak to someone, you are welcome to phone our drop-in line on 1800 187 263. They are available Mon-Fri 10am-10pm. They may be able to support your emotional wellbeing at this stressful time.
There are other members here if you want to have a chat with them. You can visit Share a cuppa? for some time out.
Please take care. Good on you for reaching out.