Good Evening @AuntGlow How are you going this evening. It's been a sunny day here but that usually means the nights are colder because no cloud cover to keep heat in. So I have my fire on, which I like feeling the heat and watching the flames and hearing the occasionally crackling.
Yes. I have been having some interesting conversations with tyme. Having those conversations helped me last night in that they were a distraction and kind of a meta-analysis. Thinking about wha I'm thinking about and feeling.
Sleep was not good but not terrible. I got 6hrs but I had to sleep in to get that so failing badly with that weekly intention!. I didn't get up too late though and got a load of washing dry.
I have a complex MH apart from cPTSD I have other diagnoses.
This morning, once I got up I managed to do quite a few things and I was feeling pretty happy with what I had achieved. As the sun started to set I feel a bit angry at psych and then me and I feel pretty low now.
I have to go to volunteering tomorrow, but I don't feel like it, but I will go because I set I'd do it and so people are relying on me.
I am just doing what I normally do putting one foot in front of the other, distracting myself by doing things. I did some life admin in the sun today because I took a little table and my laptop out onto verandah where I could work in the sun, so that was a bit of self-care I suppose.
Otherwise I am suppressing the parts of me that feel abandoned, so I can function.
Well overall showing up with less avoidance meant I felt more and now I feel worse and stupid for trusting a person so much. One part of me that thinks I should not rely on anyone else is relieved I can just rely on myself again
Sorry that's probably too honest but it's how I see it overall. @tyme
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