why can't I cope longer?

[Former-Member]

Thanks , Zoe7  Maggie  Ali11  outlander  Appleblossom  ... and those who ✔️ support. 

Nice to not feel alone. Hope you're all ok? Do remind or tag me where your updates are, can't remember much 😕 (either the forums are expanding or maybe my brain is shrinking lol). 

Have backpain today, gone back to bed with a heat pack. 

Still gotta get the drawers and wardrobe out the car, one day, so I can go get the last bit out of storage in Sydney. Still have my keyboard, guitar and filing cabinets there... and a 2nd chest of drawers. Hmm 🤔 got too much 'stuff' already, this house is less than 1/2 the size of the last few I lived in, probably a good thing I guess, carbon footprint and all... They say this gathering stuff, hoarding, or collecting...whatever... they say it's tied in with loss, and trying to fill in the psychological void...  I just gotta work backwards to deal with it... a layer at a time. 

Kinda felt God was talking to my higher self, to come 'away' to this place, to rest a while, bring healing... I didn't understand it at the time (so far away from everything & all I know), but the birds, and sky, and moss and rolling hills... I see it now. Just gotta hang onto the positive divine purpose behind all things no matter how drained, sad or lonely I feel. Feel free to remind me of this anytime😊

[Zoe7]

It seems this move has been really beneficial for you @Former-Member and that is wonderful to hear   There are still going to be those times when you wonder what life is all about and where you fit into it - know that feeling well myself - but day by day you are getting things organised at the house and enjoying the envirnoment you are in - and in that regard you have made huge progress. From where you were when you were looking for a home to where you are now is a big improvement so celebrate that Hon - it is a big thing and a step forward 

[Maggie]

@Former-Member  A sunrise or sunset will always do something for me, as well as the singing of the birds. Life gets simple while dealing with the complicated.

I know back pain well. A heat pack sounds good. Hope the unpacking gets done eventually. I have half my stuff packed waiting for the next move. It’s not at all easy. Take care.

[Ali11]

The rolling hills and the sky... you have painted a beautiful, restful picture @Former-Member. Hope you can rest up with that heat pack and enjoy the healing one day at a time.

[Appleblossom]

@Former-Member 

Good to hear from you.  Trust in your instinct for knowing what is good for you.  I just had a drive through the countryside and it is healing and calming.

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Appleblossom   @Ali11   @Maggie   @Zoe7   @outlander  How you all going. I'm still cleaning up collateral damage from last week's slump. Trying to fix phone contacts this morning. Such a pain to me and everyone I blocked or deleted. Got myself a welfare check yesterday, annoying.

[Former-Member]

[Maggie]

Hi there @Former-Member  sorry about the welfare check, that’s a pain. If you don’t mind me asking, what are you doing with your phone? I hope it’s not a dumb question.

I’m heading out for awhile, I hope you have a good day.

[outlander]

@Former-Member 💜💜💜

[Zoe7]

Sometimes blocking or deleting people is self-care @Former-Member - it is your way to cut out those in your life that cause damage - and we need less of those people in our lives not more.

Hope you have had an okay day. Always good to see your name pop up Hon